Please take away my bad dream .....

It's was suffering on this feeling again ...
It's wasn't end yet ...
God please guide me ...
Should i give up or shouldn't ..?
Am i continue or just stop it ..?
What will gonna happened next ..?
Does it a good thing or a bad thing ..?

God Please ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
I really feel so bad ...
I couldn't trust sometimes and there lots of problem to face with ...
After this, clearly shows that i can be a good friend but not a good girl friend ...
Hate the feeling of waiting ...
Hate the way that i chosen ...
But it become the fact ...
A fact that cannot been changed ...
Happened means happened ...
I know that i'm lie on myself, hide from myself and high expectation on this ...
But i am still couldn't find a reason to explained to others ...
U said i am care on my face, but i am not ...
I know u won't believe it, but i am still cannot find a reason that back to the last time ...

Sometimes i was thinking to end it here ...
But i just couldn't did so ...
Sorry to make u suffered ...
Maybe u can did this on me ...

God,
Please take away my bad dream ...
Please God ...............

guide me god .....

Chinese New Year was very busy visit all the uncles and aunties......
Its good to make myself busy but at the same time have to face all the relatives...........

hmmm........................
time past day by day.....................
from the first day of cny started to thinking til today ...............
Knew that you are coming back....................

Its kinda complicated feeling in my mind ................
difficult to describe..........................

Jesus, please guide me.... 

Jesus name i pray.. 

flash back ....

At last, I'm still missing the moment we been together....
Nice chatting back with you....

Went to a new hair cut without any worried...
Just follow my heart and did so...
Unexpected happy of it....
So far non of one person complaint me ugly la... hee hee +)

Now, laying on the bed while waiting ur reply.....
Really out of my expectation....
Some kind of sadness hit on my heart again...
Flashing back our sweet moments and conversations....
This expectations makes me disappointed again...
Why? I knew because I tot u will apology and telling me you will do it for us...
But unfortunately u didn't...
The way u reply it's exactly u....
The one who never easily apology and showed out ur guilty...
I'm actually understand and didn't get angry....

Sometimes wish to dream that u could did it because of me... :)

you are getting better without me ... :(

It's a good thing that u hanging out to release ur stress...
U got ur friends, got your life and so freedom...
and I know you getting better without me.....

I should happy on this but the truth is always hurt instead....

Yes... it's hurt me again........
Sorry daddy and mummy, I crash with u two just now ....

Anyhow, my love be happy.....

(Sometimes I do feel to exchange character with you)

HURT !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

it's a short updated before can get into sleep...

i dun know why i return everything to him...
i know i will be very sad but i force him to took back .....
i know he sure will be very freaking sad..........
but i did it ..... i am hurting him again...............

he look very slim than last time.....



I dun even dare to look into his eyes.....
ARRRRRGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

God Please Tell Me How To Continue ......................
I really don't want both of us to get hurt anymore ....................

Tears Never Stop D roping & Heart Never Feel Better ..........................

i do really miss u but there is always a BUT !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ARRRRRGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I HATE YOU !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

BUT

I HATE MYSELF MORE !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Today hanging around with my bestie...
It's been so long we didn't eat n chat for a day..

Talking about her and me, she and him....
Yay!! It's a great night n happy dinner with them...
Love u all......

However, when d time back to alone, some kind of sadness appear again...
Drive alone, and listen to d radio playing d sad music....
Haizzzz... thinking of you again.......

Not much to comments myself anymore...
Hope time can past faster.....

God bless.....
(Did u miss me?)

moody ...

I finally can feel that gai ling huan xu gai ling ren...
I can't sleep d whole night but I dunno why...
maybe I'm really miss you...
I appreciate ur call, d songs and d care...
It's still early that u showed to me...

u become my habit...
Now only I realize last time how annoying am I...
I getting bored with my ph becox I do nothing looking over d ph...
it such a nightmare for me to make this decision...

No matter how, don't give up yourself !!!!
Prove it to me, Prove it to others !!!!




How wish time can fly ~~~~~~~

第一个星期。。。

每个夜晚都是我最痛苦的时间。。。
泪也请不之尽地流出来。。。
我很捨不得，那又能怎么样呢？

每一分每一秒我都希望回到过去。。。
我很想念以前的日子。。。

但这是不可能的事了。。。
我欠人家地，
我得保护我自己。。。

我真心地希望你可以知错和好好想清楚。。。
该怎么做才是对自己服责任。。。

我爱你！！！
加油！！！！